Sunday, June 12, 2011

..operation itu hari..

9th June 2011....
hari yg akan aku igt sampai bila2...
1st time wat operation....yess....1st time beb...kt DEMC

time suma da set..kne dtg kt admission counter kol 8.30am....tp aku dtg awal...kol 8 da tercegat depan kakak tue...hahaha...excited ke hape aku pon x tau....
tp kakak tue attend gak laa aku yg awal nie...so dpt msk blk awal...
masuk booked bed dlu tuk 2 beded...tetibe dpt single bed....my luck...alhamdulillah...

so...kol 9 nuz tue suro siap2 tuka baju n bkk sume yg aku pki...baek laaa....
perot aku lak asik berbunyik...isk...pose dr 12 MN laa kate kn...tp tipoo laa...kol 3 pg aku mnm air...haha...im a nuz n aku tau ape nk wat...under GA kn kne pose 4-6 hours je..so aku da target msk OT mesti dlm kol 9..x slh kn mnm...
aku tau mesti bengang nk layan medical staff nie...

dlm kol 9.30am kot aku da kne pgl...ntah pehal aku asik tergelak je...
dgn kewl nye aku baring atas trolley tue sambil betol kn OT cap...weird huh...me..lying on that trolley...urghhh...

sesmpai kat OT...dorg letak aku kt recovery bay n check vital sign...siap sister dorg attend aku..wuhuu...medical staff kn...ade 2 staff laen tny sal gaji...sal keje kt hosp aku skrg ok ke x....biase laa 2...aku pon lebey kurg cmtue gak...

so...ntah kol bape time tue...anaest tue tolak aku msk dlm OT...ngeee...tetibe cuak...
ade beberape bro ensem dtg pasangkn BP cuff and bla..bla.....
anaest tue pon ready2 nk insert line kt tgn kiut aku nie...ahaks...mmg saket pki branula pink..x tipoo....
trus dea inject medication..aku rase IV Mida 5mg kot...trus aku lalok sekelip mata...anaest tue aku nmpk cm balam2 jek muka dea...dea kate amalina lepas nie u akan tdo yer...ade sorg abg ensem tue dtg nk letak mask kt muka n suro aku tarik nafas dlm2...trus aku lupe ape jadik.....................tettttttttttttttttttttttttttttt.......

sedar2...aku rase nk PU yg amat laa....aku da gerak2 nk bgn sambil merengek2 bgtau nk g toilet...imagine me merengek2...ahaks...aku dpt rase lelaki yg jaga aku tue a.k.a ot staff tue cuak sbb aku nk bgn dr trolley...then sister dea dtg tenangkn aku...gtau yg aku mmg akn rase cmtue sbb td dea da empty kn bladder aku..."amalina..td sy da mskkn tiub kencing..awk mmg akn rase cmtue.."....WTH !!!!!....tiub kencing?cbd?..ngee...ternoda sekejap...aku raba perut aku...ade 3 opsite..scary~~~ ..then Dr.dtg n bg cket explanation...yess....i need that explanation even thought in still in GA state..

after passing report...blaa.blaa.blaa...aku d anta msk bilik...lega...tp rase nk kencing still ade...aku trus bgn then gtau kt staff nuz yg berdiri tepi aku tue aku nk jugak g toilet no matter wut...im insist to go...i dun want bed pan...then dtg student papah aku g toilet...aku nmpk muka cuak staff nuz n mak aku...punye lama duduk kt toilet tp xde ape kuar...then blk smula g katil...pastu 15 min later...aku nk lg g toilet tp aku g sendri...x sempat mak aku pgl nuz...ahaks...aku sgt stubborn..aku duduk lg kt toilet tp ciput je kuar...pedih dea tuhan je tau...huhu...pastu aku naek katil smula...aku tdo more than 6 hours...knockout...

Friday, June 10, 2011

...cabaran n tekanan...

2011 bermula ngan baek skali...rezeki murh n smua berjln lancar...
tp start bln april...smua cabaran n dugaan yg menjadi tekanan bermula..
what a sick month !!!!
im sick n i think my fren already know bout this...the sickness that require me to do operation...
then im losing him...but im ok with it...saya redha n sy ok...
tekanan kt ward lagik...kwn2 suma ok tp 'ngesot' yg wat kami stress...arghhh....

since January 2011...at least once a week aku akn ambik 1 hari tuk drive n duduk beribadat kat masjid negara...
bukan mahu menunjuk tp siyes...aku rase tenang bile sujud kt karpet masjid tue...
nk wat hari2 x bley kn...keje shift x sempat...so biase aku akn g hr khamis kalo hr tue keje pg...

xde tempat tuk aku meluah rase sedih or ape2 je prasaan kot...kwn2 ade tp xde sape yg lebey paham ape aku rase melainkn Allah...
nk bercerita pon bkn nye reti...lebey2 lg aku yg suke ketawa nie...cite patut nye sedih pon leh jadik klaka jek..

byk cabaran thn nie tp sume nie dugaan...aku akan cuba hadapi sume nie ngan tenang..
semua yang berlaku pasti ada hikmah nye...n aku akn trus hadapi nye tanpa berganjak..yess....i know i can...haha...Allah tue adil...pasti ade cahaya di sebalik kegelapan...